Ice Fishing in Memory of Rick today....A couple of years ago my son along with a group of guys from his work organized an ice fishing trip where they would take along Rick and his dad for Rick's last ice fishing. Rick cherished that so much that they would think about him in that way. They even brought his scooter that he was driving at the time and special equipment to make it happen.
Today, Rick's 7th month, Matt one of the guys from that group and my son, with many others are out there on the lake ice fishing in memory of Rick. I was so pleased that they were doing this and especially on this day. Rick and I would ice fish each year for hours at a time and even caught a huge one that I had mounted for him. Going ice fishing for me right now is still too painful. At times just being in a group is so very hard.
The 13th of each month is always filled with such wonderful memories of my late husband Rick. I decided that I would have a very "do nothing day". If I wanted to cry I could. Just sleep till I couldn't sleep anymore. I find it hard to believe that I haven't seen Rick for seven months. The old mind just doesn't want to wrap itself around that at all!
I had another one of those very real dreams where Rick and I are snuggled together and he and I just talk and talk for hours. In my dream, I know he is gone and has just come back to talk to me and to let me know he is always aware of what is happening and how I am doing and that he himself is doing okay.
It is hard to wake up from these dreams as I just want to stay there with him.
I am so missing you Ricki...sending hugs and kisses your way!
