Welcome

This blog is about a new walk with my husband Rick & I since he was diagnosed with ALS (Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis) or Lou Gehrig's Disease or MND (Motor Neuron Disease) on February 1, 2008.

This blog was started as a way to keep our family and friends and anyone else interested in our battle with ALS updated.
So as you read this blog please keep us in your hearts and prayers.

The blog starts from the most current to the oldest entry. Rick has started to blog now also as of April 1,2008 so this site has become officially "our blog".

My dearest husband Rick passed away on August 13, 2010,
2 1/2 yrs after diagnosis. Now I have to learn how to walk in the courage, strength and bravery that he did in fighting this disease. He promised me he would be waiting for me in eternity on a park bench. Together Forever!

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Rick here..."The good and the bad"

We always dread going in for the ALS Clinic day...not because of the people...they are truly amazing and helpful!!!! We see communication , nutritional, pulmonary, occupational, physio specialits, social workers and our special Dr. Casey. Sadly though it usually results in us having to face once again the inevitable decline in ability and function. Not like we don't know it is happening but it just makes it more official and in my face for a reality check.

The bad news is...my FVC (breathing capacity) has declined from 46% of expected normal capacity in September to 28% now. The bottom line is that ALS is killing the muscles that enable me to breath. When I started out at diagnosis I was actually at 125% of expected normal capacity...well above average! At least I like to think I was above average!!! (Joan put that in) :)

They tell me that the numbers aren't everything....which is true....but when it is your body that can't get the breath like it used to...it is hard to convince otherwise. I am faithful using my bipap and LVR and believe it has truly helped me so far! Mercifully, I have avoided any chest colds (mostly because no germ has the nerve to enter the "Clorox" zone that Joan has created around me!!! )Thanks sweetheart!!!

The good news...is that the tube feeding is doing its job and my weight loss has stabilized...I sit at 141 lbs right now. Down from 178 lbs at diagnosis but at least stable.

At this point-when I look that tiger in the eye-it is all about how long the breathing will hold out. That basically tells you how long you will last unless something unexpected gets you first. But hey....let us believe in miracles!!!!